Archive for February, 2012

As we approach Lent, I personally believe we enter into Lent broken, sad, hurt, bothered, lost, confuse, exhausted, misunderstood, scared, and the list can go on and on. But I also believe we enter into Lent being mean to other people with the words we say or didn’t say or as the penitential rites go “through my thoughts and in my words, in what I have done and in what I have failed to do”. I think it’s vital that we acknowledge that we have hurt others just as much as others have hurt us.

Isn’t that what Lent is about, just as everything else, we need maintenance, we need to better ourselves. I can say that Lent is the most practical time of the year in the Liturgical calendar of the church. A successful Lent requires a lot on our part to be honest, outside the requirements of the church which is fasting on Ash Wednesday, Good Friday alongside all other Fridays from meat, we need to do something outside of that. Obviously something not impractical and foolish but at the same time challenging to us.

The thing about this post is, I’m not here to help you create a Lenten program as I’m sure there are many resources on the web to help you with that. I’ll however leave that topic with this, at the very least try to come for daily mass daily and spend time before our Lord in the Blessed Sacrament for at least 30mins, you don’t have to say anything but being in the presence of the one who can ONLY give us true love and true peace is a wonderful thing. I read from somewhere that if you’re not good in being still, other things can be done. Abstracted from Catholic Answers and base on the Mary and Martha situation in which Mary just sat and listened to Jesus whereas Martha were running here and there trying her very best to give Jesus the first class treatment. Some can do what Mary do and just listened and have a conversation with the Lord but there are some people who just can’t and must do a Martha. Fear not! Jesus NEVER condemn Martha for doing what she did, although striving to be like Mary is the aim. Maybe that’s just the way Martha served the Lord. For those who can’t just be still, read scripture before the Lord and meditate on it, find meditations on the readings before going to the Blessed Sacrament and in time and practice, you too can be still and know that HE is God. Furthermore when you are sick you see a doctor, likewise all of us are spiritually sick and thus we need to come to the Physician of Life and ask forgiveness thru the Sacrament of Penance, I THINK it is a requirement to go to confession at least once a year and to receive the body and blood of Christ during Lent/Easter/Holy Week and we CANNOT, I repeat, CANNOT receive communion unless we are clean of sin that is not in the state of grace if you do receive it is a MORTAL SIN and sacrilege.


Back to what I originally planned, I’ve been reflecting with what Bishopsaid awhile back and been reflecting a lot about those people not involve with the church or who don’t go to church altogether. “They have a conversion to Christ but not to the church, His bride” Bishop once said and that struck me because it is true. They go to mass every sunday but you never see them unless it is required such as days of obligations. In simple they are not involve with the church in any ministry. But what even strikes me are those Catholics not taking their faith seriously and it is a serious matter and to a degree when I think of my love ones  and friends, to a point, it scares me that they are not. Take Catholic out of the equation and we still can see many people not taking their faith seriously. Well I’m not here to condemn cause neither am I perfect and sinless but instead I want to see YOU back in the church. Jesus said “I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.(Luke 15:7)”  and it does make me happy really.

Well there is a reason why Jesus left us with His bride, the church and His Spirit, simply because we need it. But who exactly is the church looking for? For all the hurting souls running from their healer, for all the Pharisees, empty on the inside, for all the lovers who spent their love on a lie, for the forgotten, the Father’s heart says come, for all those looking for approval, for those who have never heard being called beautiful before or that they are important and special, come. All of us are tired in one way or another be it physical, mental, emotional or even sometimes spiritual but one of my most favorite verses is “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.(Matthew 11:28)”  I don’t need to say anything more. Please come back.

For those who are already in the church so to say, please pray for the conversion of those who do know His love and peace, for those who have harden their hearts towards Him.


“At the time he was betrayed and entered willingly into his Passion, he took bread and, giving thanks, broke it, and gave it to his disciples, saying:


In a similar way, when supper was ended, he took the chalice and, once more giving thanks, he gave it to his disciples, saying:



The Grace and Peace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you †


I’m exhausted full stop. I come to the point when I just don’t want to do anything other than what I want to do. No one knows what I’m going through or rather people don’t even want to bother as well they have their own life to attend to. The words people say sometimes it stings do the core, sometimes it’s the things that people don’t do that hurts the most, saying “hi”, asking “how are you?” or just being there.

Driving home late one night, those were the things going through my mind. Have you ever been tired that you were just too tired to even sleep?Well I have. I didn’t want to drive back home, even though I had to obviously. I just didn’t want to do anything, it’s too much to bear. I keep coming back to the word “rejection”, I don’t feel love..I mean not the family/friend kind of love but if I’m being honest a girlfriend love would be nice. But anyway I didn’t want to drive back home, it’s not so much physical tiredness but more of emotional and mental tiredness and well that’s when I just said “Jesus take the wheel”, if you are familiar with those words then well like me it’s from Carrie Underwood’s version of the song. Not literally, but it has a deeper meaning I suppose, take control of my life, I can’t do this anymore, there’s no direction, no peace, no love. Or rather  no TRUE and LASTING love and peace.

The temptation for me at least is the temptation to settle for less. I want earthly love and peace but I know very well those are conditional love. I’ve been reflection on St.Francis prayer and well the more I think about it, the more I go “how the heck am I suppose to do that?!” but it is a challenge.

Lord, make me a channel of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury,pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen

I’ve been particularly reflecting on the second part of the prayer cause honestly for me it works the other way around, i want to be console as to console, to be understood as to understand and to be love as to loved. Well sadly being a Catholic, it doesn’t work that way because well the answer is there ” For it is in GIVING that we RECEIVE, in PARDONING that we are PARDONED and it is in DYING TO ONSELF that we are born to eternal life. The question now is how do I do that? Pray is one thing.

As Lent approaches in 15 days, it’s going to be a war on a personal basis, Mother Teresa of Calcutta once said ” God doesn’t require us to succeed; he only requires to try”, in other words do your best and leave the rest to God because God will never send us where His grace cannot sustain us. I mean God was crucified for me, the very least I could do is try and when I fail, I know God still loves me which brings such comfort to me knowing that even though I’m a sinner He still loves me. Why so? I know that even though I walk in the valley of the shadow of death, that is feeling unloved, not special, unappreciated, exhausted, rejected..I know He is walking with me through it all, in my head, I picture Jesus infront of me, seeing if everything is safe, saying to me “shouldn’t be a problem for you” cause that’s life, you will always face trouble in one way or another but the great thing is He will never, you guess it, He will never send you where His grace cannot sustain you but even if you do fail, He has your back.

We should never take God for granted. I see successful people, smart students, rich students but they feel so empty, feel so unfulfilled..why? I personally think it’s because they don’t have Jesus. Power, pleasure, profit…won’t get you very far. This Lenten season, do pray for t